It took awhile for me to realize this,  and I used to feel bad for feeling this way, but it’s true. I love you, but hell I don’t like you. It’s sad & embarrassing whenever you’re in a conversation with someone and somehow the person (you love & don’t like) pops up in the conversation or just physically appears…. It is a shame, especially when it’s supposed to be the one person you love the most. You can only want so much for them, and feeling sorry for another doesn’t help it either. What do you do?

Some will say “things will get better”, but may fail to deeply understand how it got to this point to begin with. And forgiveness, HA! Forgiveness doesn’t solve the problem. You can have all the faith in the world,  and hope relationships amend themselves, but realistically (and depending on the situation at hand) all relationships aren’t meant to last forever, family or not.

There will be a time, or times maybe even plentiful, where you have to be the bigger person. This isn’t necessarily about apologizing & moving on, but to forgive the other & move on. Unfortunately, not everyone will apologize & own up to their shit. Even if you do somehow it won’t be enough. Its too easy, and they’d rather be difficult than not. It’s the only way for them. THEIR way or the HIGHWAY.

Love can only do so much, and love is still in you. Because you love someone, you don’t have to sabotage yourself to be around them. Because you love someone, it doesn’t mean you have to cater to them & their every “need”. Because you love someone, it doesn’t mean you have to pretend to LIKE them.

There comes a point when you have to put a stop to the crazy ride. Not all rides at the theme park are fun.

Mo