When will I ever be good enough for you? It seems impossible now, knowing you’re not even satisfied with yourself. The expectations you placed on me should’ve been for you, how can I foresee what YOU want for ME. I’ve always been doing me and going unseen these days, weeks, and even months at a time. I like it that way. I like who I’M becoming.

You’ve always been too involved with everyone else, losing yourself each time you believed you have found, another…. I refuse to be like that. Life’s more to me than just that. Now I see those same expectations disappointing you, because of what YOU went through. It’s not me, and it’s not okay to place that on me.  I’m tired of you assuming me of being combative because I disagree with you. This is not about YOU, when you’re busy comparing me to my siblings.

Never Good enough for you, but I’m good enough for me and those who are around me. Thank you for allowing me to see this. I’ve decided I no longer want to be good enough for you, because being ME should be enough, and I’m good enough for me.

I cried today, but not because of disappointing you, but because of disappointing myself. I can’t please you every time I see you. Sounding bothered each time we talk as if I did something to you, and becoming short tempered whenever I express my feelings. It’s exhausting, being present but having no voice. Screaming internally when all you hear is static electricity.

I can’t engage in this toxicity.

Never Good ENOUGH, because you’re not Good ENOUGH for yourself. Never Good ENOUGH, because whatever I DO is misunderstood. Never Good ENOUGH, what have I ever done to you? Never Good ENOUGH is it because of your dreams not coming true?