He Said He Loves Me…

He Said He Loves Me…

Of course he did. And maybe he thought he did.

What does love mean to you? Maybe that’s what it was all along, and maybe we were both loving each other wrong.

We loved differently………

He said he misses me. And maybe he does.

But on the other hand all of that missing was the feeling I don’t miss when we once was.

It’s too late for all of the that, so he can miss me with the bullcrap. 

He said I was right. And I knew he would say that. They always do.

But it was never about being right or wrong, it was about being true…all along.

All the things he says to me now, doesn’t even matter now…..

I’ve always thought that was funny. The similarities of one wanting something so badly back then, and all of the sudden now the other.

It’s too late for all of that, so he can tell me he loves me, he can tell me he misses me, and that I was right all along…None of those sayings matter at this point, especially when you could have said back then.

Maybe those feelings weren’t valid then as they are now, but so are mine. I thought, and I’ve said a lot, but after time apart, I realized that I was right, and where I am now is where I belong.

Too bad you had to learn this way, but what more can I say…



Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

This is how you’ll keep your frequency going. Find the positive, and don’t be afraid to show it…..

Go ahead and look back, but don’t ever allow the past to attack. You’ve gone through enough already, so instead reflect….

What have you learned?

What will you take with you towards your upcoming lessons? You have another chance, and you will continue to have them, such a blessing.

See the beauty of it all. The ups, the downs, the smiles the frowns. All of these experiences are here to guide you, which way are you willing to take?

Which path is real, and which one is fake?

The action is up to us, so what will it take?

You are standing after that last fall, and that last one was pretty tough. Sometimes you feel like not getting up…..but you did, and it was good enough.

Realize what you did, how far you came, don’t ever water-down your mountain. It’ll turn into a big clod of mud, instead of an accomplishment. Your little successes deserve some recognition too. Give yourself more credit, and love yourself a little more too.

Remind yourself to keep going, but when you look back, know that you had to overcome that. You are here now, the past is back there now, but being here has allowed you to be prepared for the next round.

It’ll be easier this time around.

And you got it, the resilience you have is of nothing short of brilliance. Sometimes you see the test, and other times you feel tested. Being an overachiever, you already passed it, so think ahead, and enhance it.

See the beauty of it all.

You are still wearing that crown, no matter how many times you fall down.

And you do it with grace,standing there face to face with yourself. Only you are holding yourself back, and you know that.

But this time, looking in the mirror, you reflect once again. It’s been digested before, and this time you’re positively sure.

The beauty of it all, quite the figure of speech. It’s more than an external visual, and more like the state of BEing.

It is reflected from how you are feeling…


U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

I Feel Too Much, so I’m often misunderstood. So many people are busy caught into their own feelings, and not seeing the whole picture as they should. It’s funny when I do, and yet some see it as being weak, not realizing that it actually takes a lot of strength. Not dealing with someone, or something, is a decision to deal with something, or someone better. An unmatched competition. People become upset whenever I choose myself, and to make it clear I will forever choose her over anyone else…… I Feel Too Much, and you can’t even lie, the words I’ve expressed has you surprised. Misunderstood, yet again, but it’s my fault you can’t comprehend? I often ask myself what world are we living in, but then I realize that I’m the one who’s an alien. I Feel Too Much, and know my limits, you refuse to feel as much, and so you’ll continue to lose that much……….. I’ve learned the feelings must be mutual in order for me to thrive. You’ll get what you see, and I can promise you that here are no lies. I Feel Too Much, so it’s important you comprehend me. I like the push, it lets me know that deep down you are feeling me…….. I Feel Too Much, and it’s the same of what I want, so if you cannot look into my iIis then you are hiding something, expose your lies…. I Feel Too Much, so it is important for me to feel trusted, and if you cannot do the same for me, then it is too late, you were already busted.

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s, but then it is at that time I realize where your true intentions lie… 


Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

I Feel Too Much, so I’d rather do. And I can’t quite describe it, it’s like a rabbit stuck in a hole, and suddenly it hops right out of it. I must do, because if I don’t the feelings will subdue, and I refuse to lose. Oh my God, the feelings are becoming stronger, I have to do something, otherwise it’ll turn into a big bother. I have to allow these feelings to guide me, what is my purpose? What are you trying to advise me? Inhale, I Exhale, I’m learning to take it all in. Inhale, I Excel, I knew this would happen, my intuition is my ultimate captain. I learn to trust myself more by ignoring the distractions. They are just there to disssssstract, and I’m not here for all of that. Inhale, I Exhale, I’m feeling a little better. Sometimes the feelings become so intense, I feel as if I’m under the weather. I’m not. I’m just in my feelings, trying to sort things out, trying to get the their meanings. Inhale, I Excel. I refuse to hold myself back. Anyone who knows me, knows that, so why would you expect me to allow you to do that? Inhale, I Exhale. I love, and I forgive. Continuously. Life is like that sometimes, you breathe in, taking it for what it is. You breathe out, letting the lessons of life flow about. Inhale…. now Exhale/Excel it all out. 


Ask Yourself…

Ask Yourself…

Are you living your life fearfully or are you fulfilled fully?

I don’t know about you, but so much has changed for me in the year, but I couldn’t be happier where I am now. It took a lot out of me to get here, but now that I am here, I’m not leaving.

My “here” is myself….. Doing things that make me feel coMpletE….

Realizing that changes take a lot of sacrifices, and redirecting your focus, A LOT not just a time or two. It is different. You are becoming different, so this requires doing things differently. It is so uncomfortable, but that’s okay, we embrace it…we must learn to.

Life is seriously like a roller coaster, the thrill can be scary, excited, unsure, etc. But we must still learn to enjoy the ride. Or like when you’re commuting somewhere for the first time, you never know how the traffic is going to be until you drive. Just buckle up and go. Ask yourself, are you living, or are you just alive? Check in with yourself sometimes, and know that it is okay to take that step back to check in. Often times we’re just coastin’, and floatin’ through the days and become burnt out from it. Pause, breathe….or breathe, stretch, shake, let it go LOL (music break). Anyhow, take a break from your tasks…Living is not just about working, creating, eating, cleaning, and what have you, sometimes you just need to chill and not do anything. Or maybe you need to hang out around other people, or maybe alone. Ask yourself what you need to do so you can learn to live life fully, and in that moment…don’ just float around, you are not a balloon.

Remind yourself of this daily, it takes practice, but maybe you’ll become more aware of this and learn to appreciate your days, or learn to make them better…You deserve the best after all right? 


Fighting Through Fear.

Fighting Through Fear.

Just fight it. Whatever you are going through, fight through it. You may not be able to do anything about it now, but sometimes not doing anything is the best you can do. Not doing anything, sometimes, is a fight all on its own.

But what about the other end? You will, and you should do something about it. Having conversations about your fear is one of the most vulnerable things you can do. We all have fears, but a lot of us pretend not to. This makes some people shy about talking about their fears, and instead the fear bottles up inside them, and sometimes for a very long time. Understand it is okay to have fears, and most importantly, it is okay to talk about them. When you talk about your fears, you give yourself an opportunity to come up with a solution. Or maybe the person you’re speaking with can help you. Even if its just listening. Being able to express yourself is a way to fight through your fear, so don’t ever be afraid to open up.

Whenever someone talks to me about their fears, I ask them why? I always ask questions, because a lot of our fears are made up. We make excuses so we don’t have to take that huge step. But that huge step should be the number one reason why we should do it. Fight your fear through action. This means to STOP thinking so much of the “what ifs”, and just go for it. We must remind ourselves that we have this one life to live, so let’s make it count. You know what’s worse than fear? Regret. Think about your future and consider what type of thoughts you’d have looking back. Exactly. So make yourself proud. All it takes is ACTION.

Little steps are better than no steps, and there is nothing worse than waiting around for nothing. This goes to show you how much fear controls us. When you have the urge to do something, and a stronger urge to not do it, fight it, don’t let it control you. Literally look fear in the eyes and fight it. Get out of your head, because fear knows how to mess with you. The negative thoughts will be there regardless if you do it or not, but at least if you do it, you are more than halfway there. Fight it, the crippling and sickness side effects of the fear. Learn to turn that disease into motivation. Trust me.

Like anyone else, I too have a lot of fears, but I’ve allowed them to motivate me and not discourage me. We have enough of that going on in this world, so why must we add more to ourselves. Don’t allow yourself to become an enemy, instead be an enigma, something like an alter ego. Surprise yourself! Doing so will allow you to learn something new about yourself.

What better gift can you give yourself besides freedom?

Don’t be afraid.


Pay Attention & Take Note…

Not everyone sees the things you see, and maybe they’re not suppose to. You see things for a reason, and yes it is unclear sometimes on why you see it, but use what you see to your advantage to help yourself, and others. You ever do something for someone, or see something and thought “why did I have to see that?” or why did this happen? I like to look at these incidents as a shift coming into action. Pay close attention to these circumstances. Sometimes, I feel that random things happen to prepare us for the next step of our journey. You have to learn to use these opportunities as a a way to learn. This can either be for your advantage, or maybe for someone else. Just pay attention.

The answer might be right in front of you, or maybe a question will pop in your head, but whatever the case is, if you pay close attention you’ll discover something you may have not discovered before. Take notice to these things, behaviors of others, and what they say and how they say it. It can be anywhere, and anyone, but you paying attention is being thoughtful about the situation. Exercise your thoughts! too many of us are not fully utilizing our brain. This doesn’t mean you have to come up with a solution, it just means to think, more so exercising your mind to become more mindful. Sounds simple right? Our way of thinking triggers from our habits. We become so use to thinking a certain way, or not thinking at all.

This creates issues, such as misunderstanding others, or ourselves, jumping into conclusions, and just plain thinking you know everything. We all do not have the answers, yet we should be open-minded into thinking about the possibilities. There can be more than one right or wrong answer, or solutions, yet we have to learn to expand the way we think. Once we have mastered this, we can expand our way of doing other things. Think about it. You learn to master the way you think, and began paying attention more, and then become more open and even wiser about your actions. 

The more you pay attention, the more you create for yourself, but you have to put in the work. It takes practice, and all of us can enhance our way of thinking, and being.

Take it one day at a time, and consider the new things you notice when you pay close attention.

Any new thoughts?