Remember that time you tried to get others against me? You were hoping to get a reaction, but instead you didn’t get a response. I wasn’t going to fall for your sick game. I knew exactly what you were trying to do, and it didn’t work. Instead it backfired, making you look less than who you try to be. I was once fooled, but because of you I learned. That’s the only props I can give you. I used to run too freely running blind without any direction. I was a lover of people and still am, but now I’ve learned that you can love from a distance. I forgive you, but it doesn’t diminish the pain I went through. I can’t forget about what happened and the unnecessary drama that followed. All because I didn’t follow your rules, and yet didn’t do anything wrong except in your eyes and only yours. I am willing to forgive but it still doesn’t take the pain away. I am willing to let go, but I still wouldn’t want to surround myself with someone I cannot trust. I still love & care for you, but I love and care for myself and mental space more. You said some hurtful things and told lies all because you were upset, and yet I’d never do that to you. What kind of love hurts another more than not? After almost 3 years, you decided you were no longer mad, but you never considered my feelings from the beginning. After I apologized and tried to make things right, you still kept that same knife you stabbed me with in my back. How can I trust someone like that? Someone who picks and chooses how to stab and where? I’ve seen you use this same tactic with others and it worked for them. You still treated them disrespectfully, because you just put a band aid on your owie. But this wasn’t an ordinary injury, there were layers to this tragedy, more pain than gain. I recognized this before, but its familiarity led me astray. I found myself trying to find myself, but she was already gone. This led me to create a new path for myself, a path that no one else can enter. I thank you for showing me what I needed all along. I appreciate the lessons that eventually turned into blessings in disguise. I hope you find it within yourself to create a path of a healthy and prosperous adventures. Not just for you but those around you. This is my goodbye to you, goodbye to the pain, but hello to what I have gain. This newfound love of life and freedom is what brought me here to you. I hope this letter finds you with peace, love, and true happiness. And I hope you create peace, love, and true happiness within yourself. That’s how you’ll find healing, but first you have to take accountability in order for you to create this. You have to admit your wrongs to make things right. You have to want change to make things better.
Moj0
Getting My Mojo Back! 