He Said He Loves Me…

He Said He Loves Me…

Of course he did. And maybe he thought he did.

What does love mean to you? Maybe that’s what it was all along, and maybe we were both loving each other wrong.

We loved differently………

He said he misses me. And maybe he does.

But on the other hand all of that missing was the feeling I don’t miss when we once was.

It’s too late for all of the that, so he can miss me with the bullcrap. 

He said I was right. And I knew he would say that. They always do.

But it was never about being right or wrong, it was about being true…all along.

All the things he says to me now, doesn’t even matter now…..

I’ve always thought that was funny. The similarities of one wanting something so badly back then, and all of the sudden now the other.

It’s too late for all of that, so he can tell me he loves me, he can tell me he misses me, and that I was right all along…None of those sayings matter at this point, especially when you could have said back then.

Maybe those feelings weren’t valid then as they are now, but so are mine. I thought, and I’ve said a lot, but after time apart, I realized that I was right, and where I am now is where I belong.

Too bad you had to learn this way, but what more can I say…

Moj0

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Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

This is how you’ll keep your frequency going. Find the positive, and don’t be afraid to show it…..

Go ahead and look back, but don’t ever allow the past to attack. You’ve gone through enough already, so instead reflect….

What have you learned?

What will you take with you towards your upcoming lessons? You have another chance, and you will continue to have them, such a blessing.

See the beauty of it all. The ups, the downs, the smiles the frowns. All of these experiences are here to guide you, which way are you willing to take?

Which path is real, and which one is fake?

The action is up to us, so what will it take?

You are standing after that last fall, and that last one was pretty tough. Sometimes you feel like not getting up…..but you did, and it was good enough.

Realize what you did, how far you came, don’t ever water-down your mountain. It’ll turn into a big clod of mud, instead of an accomplishment. Your little successes deserve some recognition too. Give yourself more credit, and love yourself a little more too.

Remind yourself to keep going, but when you look back, know that you had to overcome that. You are here now, the past is back there now, but being here has allowed you to be prepared for the next round.

It’ll be easier this time around.

And you got it, the resilience you have is of nothing short of brilliance. Sometimes you see the test, and other times you feel tested. Being an overachiever, you already passed it, so think ahead, and enhance it.

See the beauty of it all.

You are still wearing that crown, no matter how many times you fall down.

And you do it with grace,standing there face to face with yourself. Only you are holding yourself back, and you know that.

But this time, looking in the mirror, you reflect once again. It’s been digested before, and this time you’re positively sure.

The beauty of it all, quite the figure of speech. It’s more than an external visual, and more like the state of BEing.

It is reflected from how you are feeling…

Moj0

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

I Feel Too Much, so I’m often misunderstood. So many people are busy caught into their own feelings, and not seeing the whole picture as they should. It’s funny when I do, and yet some see it as being weak, not realizing that it actually takes a lot of strength. Not dealing with someone, or something, is a decision to deal with something, or someone better. An unmatched competition. People become upset whenever I choose myself, and to make it clear I will forever choose her over anyone else…… I Feel Too Much, and you can’t even lie, the words I’ve expressed has you surprised. Misunderstood, yet again, but it’s my fault you can’t comprehend? I often ask myself what world are we living in, but then I realize that I’m the one who’s an alien. I Feel Too Much, and know my limits, you refuse to feel as much, and so you’ll continue to lose that much……….. I’ve learned the feelings must be mutual in order for me to thrive. You’ll get what you see, and I can promise you that here are no lies. I Feel Too Much, so it’s important you comprehend me. I like the push, it lets me know that deep down you are feeling me…….. I Feel Too Much, and it’s the same of what I want, so if you cannot look into my iIis then you are hiding something, expose your lies…. I Feel Too Much, so it is important for me to feel trusted, and if you cannot do the same for me, then it is too late, you were already busted.

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s, but then it is at that time I realize where your true intentions lie… 

M0j0

Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

I Feel Too Much, so I’d rather do. And I can’t quite describe it, it’s like a rabbit stuck in a hole, and suddenly it hops right out of it. I must do, because if I don’t the feelings will subdue, and I refuse to lose. Oh my God, the feelings are becoming stronger, I have to do something, otherwise it’ll turn into a big bother. I have to allow these feelings to guide me, what is my purpose? What are you trying to advise me? Inhale, I Exhale, I’m learning to take it all in. Inhale, I Excel, I knew this would happen, my intuition is my ultimate captain. I learn to trust myself more by ignoring the distractions. They are just there to disssssstract, and I’m not here for all of that. Inhale, I Exhale, I’m feeling a little better. Sometimes the feelings become so intense, I feel as if I’m under the weather. I’m not. I’m just in my feelings, trying to sort things out, trying to get the their meanings. Inhale, I Excel. I refuse to hold myself back. Anyone who knows me, knows that, so why would you expect me to allow you to do that? Inhale, I Exhale. I love, and I forgive. Continuously. Life is like that sometimes, you breathe in, taking it for what it is. You breathe out, letting the lessons of life flow about. Inhale…. now Exhale/Excel it all out. 

Moj0

I Feel Too Much…

I Feel Too Much…

I feel too much, so I’d rather not… 

But when I do, I sit back and reflect. Now why did I do that? There comes a time when your alter ego appears, and at the same time you don’t have control.  Well you do,  but it’s your alter ego doing the thinking, and behaving.  Now how do you feel? Different now huh? 

I feel too much, I’d rather not… but I do,  and even when I don’t feel like feeling, I still feel. I’ve come to embrace it, a lot of us don’t have that ability,  so why not. To feel is a gift, don’t  look at it as a curse. It’s what you do with it, your truest intentions, and sometimes it hurts. Can you feel it? You rather not, because of the simplicity of  not feeling. Not wanting to make life complicated.  Too easy. Nothing is simple,  so why not feel? Why not get closer to the  potential? Why not feel alive while living? 

Don’t be afraid to feel,  but rather feel to make a difference,  to love, and to live…it’s really that simple, if you are able to feel…

Moj0

Overthinking To Overdoing…

Overthinking To Overdoing…

Which one would you rather choose?

As a deep thinker, I have the tendency to overthink, and as a doer, I also have the tendency to overdo. I’ve become more mindful of this, and my goal is to stop this type of behavior, and instead add more production to it. It is not that I don’t like it, because I do. I’ve been able to multitask and complete important projects, however the downside is not really enjoying these achievements. This is because of feeling burnout. I am an over-thinker, and I am an overdoer. Not all the time, but when I am, I feel excited, determined, and even more so eager to get to the next step. I’m learning to calm down, and to be more present. In doing this, I had to eliminate….DISTRACTIONS! What I’ve learned about myself is that I work to become distracted, away from what is distracting me. It can be anything, anyone, but situational. I am reminding you, and myself, that we cannot control what happens next, and all we can do is what we can, and let it rest (don’t overthink it). That’s right, that ending part can be difficult, so we begin the next task. We have to learn to appreciate the efforts we complete, even the small ones. Don’t allow overthinking ruin this for you. And maybe this is because we want things to be right so badly, but no matter how bad we want something, or someone, or whatever, we are only in control of ourselves. Lets become more aware of our thoughts and not just our actions. Let’s take it easy. Not to say don’t think, and don’t do, but becoming aware of these impulses and adding substance behind them, instead of stress.

Baby steps, soon to being an adult…look at you 🙂

Learn To Date Yourself (Be Your Own Boyfriend/Girlfriend)

Learn To Date Yourself (Be Your Own Boyfriend/Girlfriend)

I’ve been working on “my bad habits”, and one of them is to not go from one relationship to another. Instead, I’m learning to have a relationship with myself. It’s been awhile to be honest, and it makes me think how much I’ve lost myself being around the wrong people. You wouldn’t lose yourself around the right ones, so that’s why it is important to really learn about yourself, and this includes having a relationship with yourself, first….

Put YOUrself first. This means your priorities, feelings, morals, values, instincts, etc. Whatever is a part of you, shall come first before anyone else’s. Learn to separate that from others. Learn to accept that your responsibility is about YOU. Learn to be a little more selfish. This will eventually allow you to become selfless, when the time is right, and with the right people. Don’t go against the timing of your SelfLove, always have this on the top of your list. Your self love is the ultimate importance of your vision. The other day I posted on IG and explained how it is important to treat yourself, take yourself out, and really begin doing things that you enjoy, even if its alone. One of the other trainers, and myself, was talking about how there is this stigma of having to do things in the company of others, and how we need to change this type of mentality. Why do, why wait, why not? Why do we do this to ourselves? We miss out on opportunities because of the company of someone else. We need to be a bit more assertive to our needs, wants, desires, and we need to be in more control of how we want to approach these things. We only miss out because of ourselves. We don’t need to put that responsibility on someone else, and for what? 

This brings the point to learn to date yourself. Act as if you are the boyfriend/girlfriend of whom you desire, and treat yourself as so. Put that responsibility of being there emotionally, physically, mentally, to yourself. Put the responsibility of support, love, creativity, inspiration, and really motivate yourself as if you are not yourself, know what I mean… Learn about yourself as if you are really dating yourself, get to know yourself a little bit more. I’ve been doing this for almost a year now, and I love it. I’m learning so much about myself that I haven’t realized some of myself before. It is new, and a bit tricky, but keep practicing, and keep yourself busy. When you begin feeling discouraged, use that time to take a break. Unwind, unplug, undo, wherever you are, just unYOU yourself and take a timeout. We can’t expect to go on full speed all the time, and we have to take a break sometimes so we can charge. Just like our phones, you know. Learn to charge your batteries. 

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Do something different! When I feel like I’m in a funk, or feel discouraged, or maybe a bit overwhelmed, I’ll find something different to do, even if it doesn’t require much. Think of this as a time to go on an adventure. Walk at a new park, read a new book, take yourself out on a date to a place where you haven’t ate before. Or do nothing, and relax.

Give yourself time to really figure YOU out, this will take time, but actually take the time by applying a little more effort into yourself and well-being. You’ll learn more about yourself, and begin admiring others who share these commonalities. 

Practice, Patience, and Perseverance,

M0j0