He Said He Loves Me…

He Said He Loves Me…

Of course he did. And maybe he thought he did.

What does love mean to you? Maybe that’s what it was all along, and maybe we were both loving each other wrong.

We loved differently………

He said he misses me. And maybe he does.

But on the other hand all of that missing was the feeling I don’t miss when we once was.

It’s too late for all of the that, so he can miss me with the bullcrap. 

He said I was right. And I knew he would say that. They always do.

But it was never about being right or wrong, it was about being true…all along.

All the things he says to me now, doesn’t even matter now…..

I’ve always thought that was funny. The similarities of one wanting something so badly back then, and all of the sudden now the other.

It’s too late for all of that, so he can tell me he loves me, he can tell me he misses me, and that I was right all along…None of those sayings matter at this point, especially when you could have said back then.

Maybe those feelings weren’t valid then as they are now, but so are mine. I thought, and I’ve said a lot, but after time apart, I realized that I was right, and where I am now is where I belong.

Too bad you had to learn this way, but what more can I say…

Moj0

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Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

Don’t 4Get 2See Da Bea.you.ty of it @LL…

This is how you’ll keep your frequency going. Find the positive, and don’t be afraid to show it…..

Go ahead and look back, but don’t ever allow the past to attack. You’ve gone through enough already, so instead reflect….

What have you learned?

What will you take with you towards your upcoming lessons? You have another chance, and you will continue to have them, such a blessing.

See the beauty of it all. The ups, the downs, the smiles the frowns. All of these experiences are here to guide you, which way are you willing to take?

Which path is real, and which one is fake?

The action is up to us, so what will it take?

You are standing after that last fall, and that last one was pretty tough. Sometimes you feel like not getting up…..but you did, and it was good enough.

Realize what you did, how far you came, don’t ever water-down your mountain. It’ll turn into a big clod of mud, instead of an accomplishment. Your little successes deserve some recognition too. Give yourself more credit, and love yourself a little more too.

Remind yourself to keep going, but when you look back, know that you had to overcome that. You are here now, the past is back there now, but being here has allowed you to be prepared for the next round.

It’ll be easier this time around.

And you got it, the resilience you have is of nothing short of brilliance. Sometimes you see the test, and other times you feel tested. Being an overachiever, you already passed it, so think ahead, and enhance it.

See the beauty of it all.

You are still wearing that crown, no matter how many times you fall down.

And you do it with grace,standing there face to face with yourself. Only you are holding yourself back, and you know that.

But this time, looking in the mirror, you reflect once again. It’s been digested before, and this time you’re positively sure.

The beauty of it all, quite the figure of speech. It’s more than an external visual, and more like the state of BEing.

It is reflected from how you are feeling…

Moj0

I Feel Too Much…

I Feel Too Much…

I feel too much, so I’d rather not… 

But when I do, I sit back and reflect. Now why did I do that? There comes a time when your alter ego appears, and at the same time you don’t have control.  Well you do,  but it’s your alter ego doing the thinking, and behaving.  Now how do you feel? Different now huh? 

I feel too much, I’d rather not… but I do,  and even when I don’t feel like feeling, I still feel. I’ve come to embrace it, a lot of us don’t have that ability,  so why not. To feel is a gift, don’t  look at it as a curse. It’s what you do with it, your truest intentions, and sometimes it hurts. Can you feel it? You rather not, because of the simplicity of  not feeling. Not wanting to make life complicated.  Too easy. Nothing is simple,  so why not feel? Why not get closer to the  potential? Why not feel alive while living? 

Don’t be afraid to feel,  but rather feel to make a difference,  to love, and to live…it’s really that simple, if you are able to feel…

Moj0

Ask Yourself…

Ask Yourself…

Are you living your life fearfully or are you fulfilled fully?

I don’t know about you, but so much has changed for me in the year, but I couldn’t be happier where I am now. It took a lot out of me to get here, but now that I am here, I’m not leaving.

My “here” is myself….. Doing things that make me feel coMpletE….

Realizing that changes take a lot of sacrifices, and redirecting your focus, A LOT not just a time or two. It is different. You are becoming different, so this requires doing things differently. It is so uncomfortable, but that’s okay, we embrace it…we must learn to.

Life is seriously like a roller coaster, the thrill can be scary, excited, unsure, etc. But we must still learn to enjoy the ride. Or like when you’re commuting somewhere for the first time, you never know how the traffic is going to be until you drive. Just buckle up and go. Ask yourself, are you living, or are you just alive? Check in with yourself sometimes, and know that it is okay to take that step back to check in. Often times we’re just coastin’, and floatin’ through the days and become burnt out from it. Pause, breathe….or breathe, stretch, shake, let it go LOL (music break). Anyhow, take a break from your tasks…Living is not just about working, creating, eating, cleaning, and what have you, sometimes you just need to chill and not do anything. Or maybe you need to hang out around other people, or maybe alone. Ask yourself what you need to do so you can learn to live life fully, and in that moment…don’ just float around, you are not a balloon.

Remind yourself of this daily, it takes practice, but maybe you’ll become more aware of this and learn to appreciate your days, or learn to make them better…You deserve the best after all right? 

M0j0

Learn To Date Yourself (Be Your Own Boyfriend/Girlfriend)

Learn To Date Yourself (Be Your Own Boyfriend/Girlfriend)

I’ve been working on “my bad habits”, and one of them is to not go from one relationship to another. Instead, I’m learning to have a relationship with myself. It’s been awhile to be honest, and it makes me think how much I’ve lost myself being around the wrong people. You wouldn’t lose yourself around the right ones, so that’s why it is important to really learn about yourself, and this includes having a relationship with yourself, first….

Put YOUrself first. This means your priorities, feelings, morals, values, instincts, etc. Whatever is a part of you, shall come first before anyone else’s. Learn to separate that from others. Learn to accept that your responsibility is about YOU. Learn to be a little more selfish. This will eventually allow you to become selfless, when the time is right, and with the right people. Don’t go against the timing of your SelfLove, always have this on the top of your list. Your self love is the ultimate importance of your vision. The other day I posted on IG and explained how it is important to treat yourself, take yourself out, and really begin doing things that you enjoy, even if its alone. One of the other trainers, and myself, was talking about how there is this stigma of having to do things in the company of others, and how we need to change this type of mentality. Why do, why wait, why not? Why do we do this to ourselves? We miss out on opportunities because of the company of someone else. We need to be a bit more assertive to our needs, wants, desires, and we need to be in more control of how we want to approach these things. We only miss out because of ourselves. We don’t need to put that responsibility on someone else, and for what? 

This brings the point to learn to date yourself. Act as if you are the boyfriend/girlfriend of whom you desire, and treat yourself as so. Put that responsibility of being there emotionally, physically, mentally, to yourself. Put the responsibility of support, love, creativity, inspiration, and really motivate yourself as if you are not yourself, know what I mean… Learn about yourself as if you are really dating yourself, get to know yourself a little bit more. I’ve been doing this for almost a year now, and I love it. I’m learning so much about myself that I haven’t realized some of myself before. It is new, and a bit tricky, but keep practicing, and keep yourself busy. When you begin feeling discouraged, use that time to take a break. Unwind, unplug, undo, wherever you are, just unYOU yourself and take a timeout. We can’t expect to go on full speed all the time, and we have to take a break sometimes so we can charge. Just like our phones, you know. Learn to charge your batteries. 

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Do something different! When I feel like I’m in a funk, or feel discouraged, or maybe a bit overwhelmed, I’ll find something different to do, even if it doesn’t require much. Think of this as a time to go on an adventure. Walk at a new park, read a new book, take yourself out on a date to a place where you haven’t ate before. Or do nothing, and relax.

Give yourself time to really figure YOU out, this will take time, but actually take the time by applying a little more effort into yourself and well-being. You’ll learn more about yourself, and begin admiring others who share these commonalities. 

Practice, Patience, and Perseverance,

M0j0

It’s Pretty F*ck*d Up

It’s Pretty F*ck*d Up

When you really sit down and think about it…..

It’s crazy when you seem like the type of person to do anything for anyone, and yet you don’t receive the same back. This can go for any type of relationship. But for now, I am speaking about intimate relationships. At 30, I am more aware of my desires than I was 5+ years ago, and now that I am single, I am more focused on not having a relationship. However, what has never changed is my effort towards someone when I really like them. This is where the f*ck*ry begins though. When the feelings aren’t mutual to begin with, one of course puts in more effort than the other, and it just amazes me how the other gets away with it not doing the same. But to be honest, that is a nasty attitude to have. You are not supposed to do things for something equal or better in return, but at the same time, it is the effort that makes the difference. You can’t make them understand, because the problem, from the very beginning, was that it was never a match to begin with. This is something to pay attention to, from the beginning, and don’t let it slide, because it’ll only get worse.

But because you are the type of person to put in effort, in everything you do, you tried to succeed at something that wasn’t meant to happen, and you know that. Congratulations…..You played ya’ self (as DJ Khaled says lol). I think we sometimes get lost in the game of winning, so you don’t want to give up so easily. And that is understandable. However, you’ll end up hurting yourself. You see the potential, but their potential is not the same as someone already “having it together” like yourself. So this is why it is important to really know yourself and be with someone who truly compliments that. I’ll take my time, even if it is forever, because the best love you’ll ever receive is from yourself anyhow, and you deserve that and more. So love yourself this time…..More!

Imagine if more people were like that. We would have a stronger sense of self, not worried about other peoples lives, drama, belongings, status. You know, not so “social media”, we wouldn’t, compare, and instead be more inspired. Well only in a perfect world, and we are not perfect, we are all trying to figure things out and that’s why we’re here. To try, learn, and share…sounds simple, but here we are, still complicated….

LOL!

M0J0

Sometimes… (Part 1)

You get tired of people’s shit. Yet somehow, they want you to be a part of THEIR shit (so badly)… I just don’t get it!

I like taking the slower route to change, because I enjoy seeing and using other routes, but not other people do that. Shit we all things differently right. But, what I don’t get is how people can do whatever it is they do, then expect you to be a part of it. What if you still need time to adjust to this change, especially a dramatic change. This is not to take away from the other person, but there are boundaries (which a lot of people do not have, and don’t care if you do).

I’m just exhausted. I know there are others going through this too, because I see it almost everyday. Let’s vow to not be a part of anything, or anyone, we don’t want to be a part of, and not feel guilty over it. I just wish people paid more attention to their actions, and stop expecting those around them to change on their watch. It’s not fair right? Why should we have to stop our lives to cater to something, or someone who deep down doesn’t want to be a part of it themselves?

Also, give people time, everyone is not quick to adapting to certain situations and people right away… 

long sigh,

M0j0