He Said He Loves Me…

He Said He Loves Me…

Of course he did. And maybe he thought he did.

What does love mean to you? Maybe that’s what it was all along, and maybe we were both loving each other wrong.

We loved differently………

He said he misses me. And maybe he does.

But on the other hand all of that missing was the feeling I don’t miss when we once was.

It’s too late for all of the that, so he can miss me with the bullcrap. 

He said I was right. And I knew he would say that. They always do.

But it was never about being right or wrong, it was about being true…all along.

All the things he says to me now, doesn’t even matter now…..

I’ve always thought that was funny. The similarities of one wanting something so badly back then, and all of the sudden now the other.

It’s too late for all of that, so he can tell me he loves me, he can tell me he misses me, and that I was right all along…None of those sayings matter at this point, especially when you could have said back then.

Maybe those feelings weren’t valid then as they are now, but so are mine. I thought, and I’ve said a lot, but after time apart, I realized that I was right, and where I am now is where I belong.

Too bad you had to learn this way, but what more can I say…



U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s

I Feel Too Much, so I’m often misunderstood. So many people are busy caught into their own feelings, and not seeing the whole picture as they should. It’s funny when I do, and yet some see it as being weak, not realizing that it actually takes a lot of strength. Not dealing with someone, or something, is a decision to deal with something, or someone better. An unmatched competition. People become upset whenever I choose myself, and to make it clear I will forever choose her over anyone else…… I Feel Too Much, and you can’t even lie, the words I’ve expressed has you surprised. Misunderstood, yet again, but it’s my fault you can’t comprehend? I often ask myself what world are we living in, but then I realize that I’m the one who’s an alien. I Feel Too Much, and know my limits, you refuse to feel as much, and so you’ll continue to lose that much……….. I’ve learned the feelings must be mutual in order for me to thrive. You’ll get what you see, and I can promise you that here are no lies. I Feel Too Much, so it’s important you comprehend me. I like the push, it lets me know that deep down you are feeling me…….. I Feel Too Much, and it’s the same of what I want, so if you cannot look into my iIis then you are hiding something, expose your lies…. I Feel Too Much, so it is important for me to feel trusted, and if you cannot do the same for me, then it is too late, you were already busted.

U Can’t Even Look In 2 My iIi’s, but then it is at that time I realize where your true intentions lie… 


Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

Inhale, I Exhale/Excel…

I Feel Too Much, so I’d rather do. And I can’t quite describe it, it’s like a rabbit stuck in a hole, and suddenly it hops right out of it. I must do, because if I don’t the feelings will subdue, and I refuse to lose. Oh my God, the feelings are becoming stronger, I have to do something, otherwise it’ll turn into a big bother. I have to allow these feelings to guide me, what is my purpose? What are you trying to advise me? Inhale, I Exhale, I’m learning to take it all in. Inhale, I Excel, I knew this would happen, my intuition is my ultimate captain. I learn to trust myself more by ignoring the distractions. They are just there to disssssstract, and I’m not here for all of that. Inhale, I Exhale, I’m feeling a little better. Sometimes the feelings become so intense, I feel as if I’m under the weather. I’m not. I’m just in my feelings, trying to sort things out, trying to get the their meanings. Inhale, I Excel. I refuse to hold myself back. Anyone who knows me, knows that, so why would you expect me to allow you to do that? Inhale, I Exhale. I love, and I forgive. Continuously. Life is like that sometimes, you breathe in, taking it for what it is. You breathe out, letting the lessons of life flow about. Inhale…. now Exhale/Excel it all out. 


Have You Ever Had an Outer Body Experience?

Have You Ever Had an Outer Body Experience?

How has your experience affected you?

A little over five years ago, I was going through a transition from a breakup living with a lot of people, to being single and living alone. It was stressful, but more relieving than anything else. I knew it was my time to have a relationship with myself and I was ready for it. I was so glad to have my mother and her friend help me move across town, so it wasn’t a burden during this transition. It was actually fun and peaceful.

At my new studio apartment one night, while I was asleep with the nightlight on, I saw myself looking at myself sleeping. It was the weirdest, yet most peaceful thing I’ve experienced. It felt so real as I saw myself sleeping and smiling. I was floating over myself, as if I was watching myself like an guardian angel. I did a little research on this and there were a few theories. What I got from it was that if you are going through a lot of stress you can have these types of experiences, mentally or physically stressed. This is similar to people who undergo surgery and may have an outer body experience.

Sounds crazy right? But it is cool, it definitely picks your brain a bit and makes you put things into your own perspective. Going through changes can cause stress, good or bad, and there may be a few signals here and there to guide you. What I’ve learn then, and more so now, is that you need to trust yourself and allow the process to be. Listen to your body, your instinct, and trust it. No matter what you are going through, you have to have your own back, and this is the message I’ve received from that experience.

What messages do you receive from your dreams, or random spiritual experiences? Do you think it is real or is it your imagination?

Dream on, & peacefully….